alot's been happening.

seems we've all plunged into that bottomless pit we used to mock. guess i've come to realise the fantasies of forever are nothing but little fairy tales painted to make each other feel that life ain't that cruel.

i was thinking how i'll one day look back at this post and laugh at it with my friends, how we'll think life was simple back then.
but then i stop.
and i think,
will there still be a we?

alot's been happening. outside my life and in it. to friendships and people that are so so dear to me. alot's changed this year, and somehow, i find myself wishing things could go back to the way they were,
back when we were happy.
when we were all happy.

then again, it's more often then not that we're wishing for the past.
people come, and they go. but there are always those that mean so much we just wanna keep holding on.
so..
for you, my dear reader of this extremely badly written emopost.
when u face times like that..

dont bloody let go.

friendship's one thing that doesnt need to reach an end.
we cry, we laugh and we fight. but in the end friends will be friends. right?

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so.. i've been trying desperately to imagine things are still happy. but whenever i sit down to think about it, i realise how much i've loved and lost over the past three years. it's as if... everything i touch turns to dust. of course i'm greatful for those who've stuck with me through it all. but then i look back at all i've lost, at times that i'll never have again, at the.. thing our friendships have become and,

it hurts.

alot.

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the one thing that pains me more than that? is seeing other friendships crumble the same ways mine did.
especially 1234bestfriends.
you guys have brought joy and laughter to so so many people. the 4 of you are among the ones who brought brought life and character to SU and lounge, and on top of that, you showed me (and so many other people) what true friendship really is. so. no matter what happenes, that is how i will always always remember bestfriends.

John
Joan
Jeslyn (it feels weird calling you that)
Ben

this song is especially for you guys.




i know. -.- the words coming in and out are.. disturbing. :S lol. but the only other types i could find on youtube are those with stills of avril posing. so.. i chose the lesserweird out of the two. =P heh. but the lyrics are down below anw.

be there for each other k. always and forever. =)
and ever.
LOL.
-.-

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You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know i wont give in
no i wont give in.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through.

So far away i wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side i will fight a
nd defend i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.

Hear me when i say, when i say
i believe nothings gonna change,
nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeah

keep holding on - Avril Lavigne






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