Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 01:33
Sad one-liners.
There has been thiss... dark blanket thingy over me recently.
It's as if it's thin enough to see through, tricking me into believing that the end of the darkness is near, but then again, it's so heavy that it weighs down on me. keeping me way from...
from what.
i duno. from the world? from my friends? from.. being myself?
but who am i really. -.-
i guess i thought i knew. but i think i know now a guess, is still a.. well, guess. -.-
so ya. -.-
heavy blanket. it's feels like im back to 2 years ago. before BETSYBONG (yes i miss you like mad) like.. squished me back into the colour world. lol. so i guess right now all i need to do is lift that bloody blanket up. i gotta stop struggling, fight myself in the dark, and just let some k-po take my blanket off for me. lol!
sighs. someone tell me what really happened.
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SO YAH. im blogging. for real. up there was just crap ranting so if u actually read though the whole thinggg...
THEN TOO BAD. WHAHAHHAHAHAHHAS.
no laaa. sorry lah ok? SORRY. ;P
heh. soooooo.... i've been drifting! for those who are wondering what *waiting-for-army boy* is doing; drifting between helping out in schooool, doing freelance, and well.. more drifting pretty much describes my life right now. I guess its pretty tough when you dont actualy belong anywhere? whennn.. most of ur buddies are already where ur waiting to go, and you have to count on unreliable jobs and there being smth to help out with in school to keep you busy.
but yyeah. i guess i should be happy. =) no frigging idea why im not. why despite all the friends and things keeping me busylikemadmonsterking i just feel... lonely. Extremely.
AND YES OKAY. IM BUSY. SO WHEN YOU SEE ME. DONT ASK, *EH. WHY YOU SO FREE AH*. COZ IM NOT. NAWTTTT. NOTTTTTTT!!!!!!! *bleh*
hmn. yup. lonely and tired. you know how we get sick sometimes right? like, a flu, or fever, or smth like that. i wonder if we get sick emotionally sometimes too. for the first time in my life, i looked into the mirror today and noticed dark rings. -.- LIKE. WOAH. whahahas.
hmn..
AASJHD:OAIHV:OSDV:OIUSDNV.
OK. YOU KNOW WHAT.
SCREW IT.
SCREW IT ALL.
wrar!
IT SUCKS BEING EMOOOO!!!!!! AOINOINDVOISNDV:O!!!!SKMV:SKNV:!!! LOL.
ok. the world sucks, life sucks. -.- LOL.
SCREW THE BLOODY BLANKET. IM COMING OUT WITH A HUGE SPOTLIGHT IN MY HAND.
LETS GO DAMMIT.
please bring back the happytimes.
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The Supremacy of Love
1If I speak in the languages of humans and angels but have no love, I have become a reverberating gong or a clashing cymbal.
2If I have the gift of prophecy and can understand all secrets and every form of knowledge, and if I have absolute faith so as to move mountains but have no love, I am nothing.
3Even if I give away everything that I have and sacrifice myself,[a] but have no love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is always patient;
love is always kind;
love is never envious
or arrogant with pride.
Nor is she conceited,
5 and she is never rude;
she never thinks just of herself
or ever get annoyed.
She never is resentful;
6 is never glad with sin,
but always glad to side with truth,
whene'er the truth should win.[b]
7 She bears up under everything,
believes the best in all,
there is no limit to her hope,
and she will never fall.
8Love never fails. Now if there are prophecies, they will be done away with. If there are languages, they will cease. If there is knowledge, it will be done away with.
9For what we know is incomplete and what we prophesy is incomplete.
10But when what is complete[c] comes, then what is incomplete will be done away with.
11When I was a child, I spoke like a child, thought like a child, and reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up my childish ways.
12Now we see only an indistinct image in a mirror, but then we will be face to face. Now what I know is incomplete, but then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known.
13Right now three things remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.
happy isnt that easy a word to spell anymore.
withlove. always,
from the guy behind the camera.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 04:22
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So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
Saturday, July 19, 2008 @ 04:36
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emoshit is gone. the weekend does help. =)
and people kicking chairs infront of them in the cinema are shit.
dont do it. -.-
its stupid and irritating.
Thursday, July 17, 2008 @ 23:43
supershit.
i hate being taken for granted
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almost as much as i hate mouth ulcers.
.
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the weekend will be better. =)
tgif.
@ 02:29
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Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
mmmhmm
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
Jason Mraz (feat. James Morrison) - Details in the Fabric
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ok. yes. i do know that no one actually reads the lyrics. but for those who do. they're actually temporarily helping me get thru another of my random emo states. so read it and listen to the song if ur emo too.
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
mmmhmm
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
Jason Mraz (feat. James Morrison) - Details in the Fabric
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ok. yes. i do know that no one actually reads the lyrics. but for those who do. they're actually temporarily helping me get thru another of my random emo states. so read it and listen to the song if ur emo too.
lol. thanks amos for posting it on ur blog. heh.
ayee. yyeah. so..
hmn.
-.-
i was about to say smth emo. but i realise that life hasnt really been that bad since the last time i blogged, and that i've really well. nothing much to complain about. but still. the nights are always emo somehow. havent really felt happy for sometime for some strange reason. i mean, yyeah! i have fun, i smile i laugh.. but.. aiyer.
this emoshit will disssapear. it'll go away again. it always does. =)
so.. anw.
i've been doing freelance! quite abit of it actually, and the pay's not exactly that good, but i guess its okay. :) building up my portfolio and doing smth productive while waiting for the army and all is loads better than working as a couch potato. =) ohyeah. i've been running too. and.. learning how to swim -.- sorta. heh.
was talkin to abby just now about how we sorta feel. stuck in the middle and out of place. friends all leaving for army, no stable job, us going to school so much when we should be leaving it behind, and how it's always awkward back in TP now. i guess.. kazumi's right about graduation. everything's differnt after awhile.
mayB i should start minding my own business a lil more a lil faster too. ahwell. DYB's almost over.
abby countered my *i know how you feel* tho. lol. she told me
"But you have Jingyuan and LL!"
lol. and yyeah! i do! whahahhas. ouh ouh and Amos and everyone else too please. lol. i think im actually incredibly extremly lucky to have got to know Pencils, VOS and the rest of the juniors. =) you guys dooo make a difference mindyou.
heh.
kk.
peekchures and all will be up soon.
and. i miss karen =( and abide2! AND CHURCHHHHH.. SATURDAY GUYSSSS SATURDAYY!! =D
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 @ 04:06
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i should start blogging alot again.
wait. -.- ok.
i should start blogging alot.
-.-
Saturday, July 12, 2008 @ 01:52
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=(